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[Thursday, November 5th, 2009 @ 10:37pm] |
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does anyone know what it feels like...to never be good enough? No matter how hard you try...?
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[Friday, September 11th, 2009 @ 1:37pm] |
My life is slowly slipping out from under my feet..wtf? FML and all of those other abbreviations for stupid shit. I'm so tired of everything. I'm so tired of being so confused and not knowing what I want to with my life. I'm so tired of being 23 and wishing I was 17 again...I'm just SO tired...
School is amazing, my kids are amazing...so why am I not happy?...
Nothing makes sense and I'm sure it never will...I never smile anymore...tears fill my eyes more than 75% of the time...I'm never good enough for anything...I get excited about things, just to be shot down...why even bother looking forward to anything or being excited about anything? I might as well just go drive my car in to a BIG tree...
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[Monday, March 2nd, 2009 @ 8:29pm] |
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Eddie and i went out on Saturday for the first time in FOREVER! We went to go see Aaron Lewis at Mohegan Sun. He is amazing. He sounds so good live. And he has such a large range in his voice...something I definitely did not know from just listening to Staind Cds. If I could, I would marry him. haha. Just kidding. But anywho...I put blonde in my hair, so this is what it looks like...it's much blonder in real life
( Your sex is on fire... )
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[Monday, February 23rd, 2009 @ 10:00pm] |
Sorry I haven't updated in a while! I've been really busy! I've been working at the studio a lot and now I work at a gym as well! AHHH! haha. I've been going to school now for the past month. I have 2 weeks left and then I will be a personal trainer! YAY! LOVE IT! I can't wait! school is so much fun and I've met some really awesome people! I'm kinda sad that it's over in 2 weeks. :(
My mom got her other leg cut off on Tuesday! I feel so bad for her. :( I'm gonna go see her tomorrow and then go get a tattoo Jenny...not sure what I'm gonna get yet...
Both of my kiddies are getting so big! lele's 9 months now and her teeth are so cute and she's crawling like crazy. She even walks a little bit now. And she waves and says bye bye. It's so cute. And she'll wave and say "hi, dada" IN the cutest little voice. It's adorable!
Maddie's so grown up now! She knows her numbers. Like I don't mean counting..I mean writing and recognizing them! She also can write some letters. She wrote her name the other day! She's so freaking smart! We went to a daycare today to help out my friend and there were kids her age there and they just couldn't even compare to her. I couldn't understand ANYTHING they were saying. They were talking in broken sentences and like "her says go over there" haha. Maddie has NEVER talked like that.
Anywho...here's some pictures to update you about my kiddos and stuff!
Me and Maddie at Devil's Hopyard last week
( Goodbye Horses... )
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[Thursday, January 22nd, 2009 @ 10:45am] |
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Wow...nice that Young Jeezy pretty much thanked the terrorists who attacked us on 9/11...by what he said it made it seem like he was glad that it happened, because he thinks that's what destroyed Bush's presidential career, so people would vote for Obama...ignorant!
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[Saturday, December 27th, 2008 @ 11:04pm] |
WATCH THE WHOLE VIDEO...
MADDIE'S SO CUTE
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[Friday, December 19th, 2008 @ 9:05am] |
So holy crap I had the weirdest dream EVER last night...well more like this morning, since I woke up at like 4 and then went back to sleep! Haha. But I wanted to write it down before I forgot.
Okay for some reason I worked at some place with cubicles and junk and they told me that I needed to go in to this room to meet with someone...and there were 2 guys there. One of them looked a lot like that vampire dude from that sh*tty new movie that's out. Haha. and he WAS a vampire and told me that we were destined to be together and what not and that he had to do something...so he like cut my hand off and put all my blood in to some bucket and I thought it was weird, but for some reason I like fell in love with him or something...and it was still like my normal life...like i had kids and a husband...so anywho...he sewed my hand back on and used some special magical whatever thing to heal the wound...yeah creepy. Ha. Then we kept getting closer and closer and everyday he would come in to my work and see me and we'd hang out. Then my work had a party every Thursday for some odd reason and he was there and i was hanging out with him and Eddie's friends were there too and I freaked out and told Eddie that I loved this dude. Haha. So weird. And then Eddie got really mad and took my babies away from me and I got really upset and realized that this dude was brainwashing me, so I found Eddie and told him everything and he forgave me, but was upset about the video of me and that vampire guy on the news....and I was like wtf? Why would it be on the news...and it was because people said we looked like the people from that sh*tty vampire movie...which he did...and people tell me all the time in real life that I Look like Kristen stewart...is that even her name? Who knows...who cares...but anyway in the end it was like my highschool reunion...5 year apparently...and the vampire dude was there and he was like 3 feet tall for some reason...and Eddie tried to beat him up, but didn't win, cuz the dude was a vampire. There was so much more to my dream...so many cool details and people that I talked to and stuff, but I can never write down those things for some reason..it just never comes out right...
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[Wednesday, November 19th, 2008 @ 10:33am] |
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OK..not to dwell on the fact that I'm super skinny...haha, but I weighed myself and it said I weigh 111lbs! Where the eff is that? Haha. Then I realized that I exercise a lot and that muscle weighs more than fat...so if I didn't have any muscle, I'd probably weigh like 80 lbs! EWWW! haha. That's gross! But whatever. I like being skinny
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[Tuesday, November 11th, 2008 @ 7:17pm] |
My new doggy is so freaking cute! I <3 him! He definitely completes our family!!! Maddie loves him and so does Lele. Lele cracks up EVERYTIME she sees him! And Maddie likes to play fetch with him. It's adorable!!!!
So Maddie's dance class got cancelled, because the other two kids in it quit. :( That's so sad!!!! Maddie loves it! We're going to try her on Saturdays, but I don't know if Miss Nancy can handle her! She's quite the handful! But...that means I don't have to work on Wednesdays anymore, so they gave me some hours on Monday night. Which'll be alright. I really gotta start saving up for Eddie's birthday, Christmas, and Maddie's birthday. All while trying to save for school still...which is in March. I can't freaking wait!!!
Tomorrow we're getting our family pictures taken for our holiday cards...so if you want one, send me your address!!!
I'm putting in extensions tomorrow for our pictures. It'll be hot! :)
I'll make an actual update...eventually. It takes me about 2 minutes to type these kinds of entries, which is about all the time I have! haha.
( Randoms from November under the cut )
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[Friday, November 7th, 2008 @ 9:37am] |
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...I wonder why everyone keeps wasting their "breath." Well not really breath, but that's why it's in parenthesis. I said I didn't want to hear anything about politics, so if I see a livejournal username in my inbox with a new comment and I know that's ALL it's going to be about...I delete it.
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[Thursday, November 6th, 2008 @ 8:52pm] |
So sick of politics. Over it. Don't even bother talking to me about it, because I don't even want to hear it.
So tomorrow we're going to look at those puppies that I put a picture up on here. I can't wait. I can't think of what to name him. I wanna name him after alcohol or something punkish. Help me think of a name :)
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[Tuesday, October 28th, 2008 @ 10:09pm] |
buy me this...pweeeeeeze
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[Sunday, October 26th, 2008 @ 8:31pm] |
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that I want a puppy...like a little one that I can dress up and carry with me! haha. We've been looking at some on petfinder. I <3 them! They're so cute!!!!
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[Saturday, September 20th, 2008 @ 7:24pm] |
can anyone make this into a moving picture for me?
i want it to be my default on myspace ASAP
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| Time to make the Donuts!!! |
[Monday, September 8th, 2008 @ 9:52pm] |
Lately I've been going to dunkin donuts, because I've been CRAVING munchkins...and wtf...they never have any...are you kidding? It's a donut shoppe. They NEED to have donuts, don't they? Whatevz. Screw them.
Anywho I've been doing really well. I barely ever write in here anymore. haha. I need to more often. I want you all to know what's going on...other than just looking at my pictures, but I'm too lazy right now, SOOOOOO here's some pictures
Maddie eating a lemon in Newport
( I love sweatshirt weather )
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| sorry dems |
[Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008 @ 10:12pm] |
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I am a hXc democrat and always have been..but I am NOT voting for Barack Obama..NEVER...EVER...would I EVER vote for him...and no offense, but if you vote for him, you're deaf AND blind...
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